Aloha All,
It is this
time of the year when people start their New Year’s resolution. As last year I
am still not a fan of this but at the same time I am still a victim, who fell
(and will fall) for it each and every year.
I think it
has more to do with the time which you now have … I mean you are surrounded by
family and friends. You start to evaluate your year, tell one another what was
great and what went wrong. You share your success stories but also the points
where you didn’t know how to go on. Where you were stuck. Even when you are
writing the Christmas cards you start to let some memories of the past year
slip in. May it me situations were you shared a most wonderful experience. Or
may it be a very complicated or even tough time where the one you are writing
to stood firm beside you and managed to get you through. All this is coming on
the last days of the year.
So your
thoughts as directly flowing to your overall goals, dreams and struggles. You
start evaluating everything just for yourself…
I started directly
after the Christmas holidays with the recap of 2012:
What where
my successes? What went wrong? In which situation did I like myself and felt
comfortable? In which situation did I not live up to my expectations? What or
who made me suffer? Where did I break down? Who were the people who stood on my
side when the world seemed to end right now (over-dramatizing I know)?
Did I make
the right decisions? Am I on track for my dreams and wishes?
So all
these questions are spinning in my mind and this is why I need to write right
now! This is why you most certainly will read these lines I am typing so
eagerly. Lines I will most certainly not reread or correct or anything. Just
because I want to get them out and find some peace to rest.
So as you
can tell I did quite some brain work and I a have to confess: I am not too
happy with myself. It is a lot wrong in my life and I am far from a change, far
from even a bit of the right direction because of my inner fights and
obligations; expectations I raised towards myself a long time ago. These
obligation should no longer be valid for me but still I can’t really break
myself free from them.
But (and
now my resolution kicks in) I am eager to do something about it. I am eager to
kick my own ass to at least start moving in the right direction.
My
resolutions:
-
Don’t
let chances just pass by: Jump on and try!
-
Move
physically and with your set obligations & expectations
-
Be
open towards other people and see where it leads
-
Adventures
– let them happen! Bring the magic on!
-
Stand
firm beside the beloved ones you want to protect
Do you have
resolutions? Are you in a similar situation as I am?
Hope you
have an awesome start in 2013 – always remember: Bad decisions make good
stories!
Cheers,
StrangenessOfHeart
